I decided to dive into my blog today because for the past 6 days I’ve been having this feeling of uneasiness, I just don’t feel like myself. Its not that I feel lost or feel a lack of motivation, I just have this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach and I’m quite unsure where its coming from. I’m very in tune with my feelings lately, I’m always thinking, reflecting, my minds basically just always running but I just can’t seem to pin point what is bugging me.
Exercising has been an outlet for me and usually by the time I’m done I feel this amazing high that nothing can really bring down but even after having an amazing class at Barry’s today and thinking I finally surpassed this feeling, my high just dropped down low once again. In order to not let this consume me I’m going to share 5 things I’m currently grateful for:
- Having a healthy body that allows me to do what I love everyday.
- Having amazing family and friends who shower me in love and constantly show me support.
- Being able to go to the beach everyday.
- This delicious coffee I’m currently drinking as I write this.
I hope everyone is having an amazing week.
This isn’t a post for people to feel bad or be like poor girl, its more for people to be more aware of their own actions and to think a bit more before they speak. These experiences have taught me to try and be more sensitive towards others feelings cause if you know me I usually just say whats on my mind with zero filter. So lets talk about… MY WEIGHT!
Before I left Vancouver I really enjoyed taking a fitness class at least twice a week along with my regular gym sessions. It helped me push myself and the instructors always held me accountable when they wouldn’t see my regularly. When I moved to LA, I signed up for a gym and left it at that. I absolutely love going to the gym and working out but sometimes I find myself not pushing myself when it comes to working out certain muscles *cough* chest/triceps *cough* that I don’t care for.
Once you realize that you pay for everything with your time and not with money…That is when your whole world will change and you will comprehend what actually holds value versus what you are told is valuable.
I saw this post on Instagram with the quote posted above and it literally hit home. I used to spend so much of my life and time trying to please others or adjusting what I wanted in order to be more aligned with what other people in my life wanted. Most of the time I did that, I never ended up happy with the decision or satisfied. After doing it for a couple years I finally became exhausted, it kind of felt like I lost myself in order to fit in and just make other people happy. After hitting that wall I basically decided I was going to be more selfish. Don’t get me wrong, I still do things my friends and loved ones want to do because obviously I love spending time with them but 90% of the time it’s things we mutually want to do.
I’ve become so much more independent and I love it. I probably have my mom to thank because she’s always told me that being able to do things on my own and enjoying my own company is the best thing I can do for myself. I’ve gone to eat on my own many times, travelled on my own and explored different parts of the city. Have you ever been in a situation where you want to go eat but none of your friends are available so you end up staying home or ordering in? I’ve been in that situation many times but thankfully now I don’t even care cause thats why I have myself. I don’t think I’ve ever felt more satisfied than spending my time and life doing the things that I want to do. Even when I hang out with people, I won’t give just anyone my time anymore. I know some people will be like well if you don’t give people a chance and get to know them how will you know? Well most of the time I can easily tell ( I get a vibe ), theres been times where I’ve gone out with people and wasn’t 100% convinced and ended up being right. I also can’t spend time with people who don’t value my time. If you waste my time that right there is like a red flag. I’ve had friends show up late multiple times to the point where I get into arguments because you clearly don’t value or care enough about me to be on time. The people I spend my time with are very few and are very special to me and I know that no matter what I’ll be happy even we sit on the couch and do nothing.
ANYWAYS LOL… I feel like I could go on about this topic. Moral of this whole rant I went on is don’t waste your time doing things you don’t want to do or waste your life on people who don’t value your time. Do things that make you happy with people that make your heart feel full.